I just found out today that I have yet another ear infection.
Had them as a baby and as a small child. Even in my 40's I had a few, and now when I am 56.
I guess none of us are exempt from a little ear pain. There is always going to be infection somewhere. Then the pain calls out to us and says "Go to the doctor"
Well I did. And hopefully the medicine will cure it.
Read me, Read me, read me.......... on and on goes the noise in my mind.
I just realized today that God is calling me to read the Bible.
I have not been exempt from worry, strife, bitterness, anger, unforgiveness.
I had it as a little kid , and I still have it.
It just took a little reminder from a talk with my daughter to realize that the medicine bottle for my spiritual infection is right by my bedside.
It's my BIBLE!
Thank you daughter.
And what a better way to cure the "I need more of God" syndrome than to just open it up.
He speaks, he always has. He knows my name. He knows my frustrations and my accomplishments.
But He wants me to know Him more.
So I opened the Book up and read the following: " We have been justified through faith" Romans 5:1
I am raised up with Jesus.
He is my righteousness.
I stand in PEACE before God.
I can rejoice in my sufferings.
My heart is filled with LOVE from the Holy Spirit.
I have a constant HOPE that He will never leave of disappoint.
So therefore, I can rejoice in all things.
Thank you Jesus for still speaking to me at a time when I desperately wanted to hear from you.
Just wanted to hear you say that you still love me.
Why did I wait so long to open your VOICE TO ME?
Sheila Walsh once said :" God in his mercy, out of a desire for a real relationship with us,
will continue to allow us to fall flat on our faces until all we want is him.
He is so committed to our spiritual health and growth
that he will do whatever it takes
to free us from our selfish nature.
He knows us well and loves us lavishly."
I think I need to re-find myself in Christ. So I can begin to have deep relationships with Jesus and others.
I'm going to have to go deep, get out of my comfort bubble and tell God once again that I'm His and I'll do what He asks.
So I'm asking Him again to use my weaknesses and strengths for His Glory.
I hope the medicine clears up my ear infection.
But I know God's word will clear up my longing heart.
Thanks Charissa for investing time into your dear old mom.
